My most painful moment occurs right before my composure ruptures. How do I rise while this burden anchors me down? Substituting any emotions is the only remedy because it’s better than to surrender. It’s hypocritical of me to supply armor, finding myself without it. I’m sorry for hiding in my shadows, where all my animosities are tucked in. Need more Light, more guidance, more steps to follow before the darkness evokes me. I’m sorry I fall short. I need to land and start running again to keep my focus on You. And only You. I’m tired of these commotions, I just want rest. I find myself on my knees again, but this time with my left over pride. So with this last request, please humble my heart.